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I have a mind that races, without a finish and no one wins. A million different thoughts and I am drowned in voices that desire, hate, love and are woeful. Constantly alone, I dread each day and I want change, to send a message in a bottle, to not be afraid. Grey colours my days and I read the news paper over someones shoulder and I try and believe that it is trying to cheer me up, I can feel it. But I cannot let it. I desire the sun and freedom and propinquity, passion with a gentle soul, given for me to rip apart and then apologize and then wonder where it all went wrong.